Trying to get working

Well today in an attempt to get my head around a close family member in going through and how I feel about it, I decided to pull myself together get painting! I'll admit that my art work has ground to a halt this passed ten days and I'm finding it really quite hard to get going again. But today I gave myself a good kick and cleared the work space out and got the paints out!
Firstly I poured some paint onto some glass which I'll photograph later then I thought that's not enough, so I dug out a canvas.
I began by brushing on the green paint (which is for the heart according to healing colours) with a dry brush, I did the same with some Paynes grey but it just wasn't feeling right.... What to do? It needed more feeling, I went to the kitchen and there was some cling film, so I thought that that might help so I dabbed it on which created an interesting effect then I found some bubble wrap and dabbed that on which when I looked at reminded me of cells which fits in well. But it all needed to be enclosed hence the dark frame, the white was added to give the feeling of fading away. I quite pleased with it now.